I think it takes a lot to realize what is truly important in your life at that moment. Things that meant a lot four years ago seem so small or unnecessary now. I know what I was thankful for a year ago has easily transformed into other things that I am now thankful for.
A year ago, I probably would have said I’m thankful for my family and friends, along with the strength to get through my semester of Chemistry, Physics, and Calculus. But that was a year ago and things have changed a lot. I could even say I’m a different person compared to last year. I’m a happy person compared to last year, I’m less stressed out and I have a better outlook on life. I thin kit’s crazy how much things can change in a year but it’s also wonderful.
What Am I Thankful For?
Well, my faith would have to be number one. I’m not an avid church-goer like my grandparents or some of my friends but I am very much in tune with my relationship with God. Four years ago, I started praying every single night and I can say it has helped me a lot. I wouldn’t ask for things, I would just pray for people and myself. Of course, prayer is different for everyone but I think that’s something I can identify with and say my relationship with the Lord grew stronger then. A year ago, I prayed and prayed about what I wanted and needed to do in life. I kept asking and He gave me an answer. I’m no longer a pre-medicine major and I’m not longer fussing because I have to stay in college for an extra year. I’m happy that He gave me an answer and it’s my faith that has gotten me to where I am now. I’m a confident and happy girl now. I know not to let what anyone thinks of me because the Lord made me the way I am. I’m a good person and it’s because of Him.
Of course, my family. We’ve come a long way to get to where we are now. My dad, like any other African-American male, was suppose to be a statistic but he proved so many people wrong – went to university on a academic scholarship and played football at UCF then decided to join the Army and served this country for twenty-two years. And my mother, she’s pursued so many degrees and went from a stay-at-home mother to a boss lady. I had a great foundation to look at and I have these great siblings. They don’t know it but I admire them especially my youngest sister. They’re smart kids and I know that they’re going to succeed at whatever they do because like me, they’re stubborn and never like to be wrong. My family foundation is just something I’m grateful for. I see families torn apart each day or people letting conflict arise over their love. I’m grateful for being brought up in such an environment, one where I know I can turn to whenever.
My friends. Over the year, I’ve gained some truly amazing people in my life. It’s been nice because I only have three constant friends from high school. And one of them, Sam, I’ve known since I was eleven so we’re pretty much attached. Anyways, I would not say I’m shy because I can easily go up to someone and talk to them but I’m more reserved so the fact that I’ve made quite a few friends in the last eleven months is great. I’m grateful to each and every one of them because they all bring something different to the table. There’s never a dull moment and I just enjoy being surrounded by these people. It takes quite a few people to go through before you find a good circle and I’ve found that circle or triangle. Either way, I’m happy with the people that God has placed in my life, truly blessed.
Happiness. I wasn’t happy a year ago or maybe for the past three years as I dealt with inner demons and conflicts that I already knew the answers to. I do think my major change and moving on campus were factors in starting over. I do think I started over at some point. I realized that the past is the past and I can’t let it get to me. I can’t get upset or mad at myself or things that happened years ago. I had to forgive myself and realize that I’m a wonderful person. I’m in control of my happiness and my feelings and if I want to be happy, I’m going to be happy.