“I’m not wary of getting into another relationship, I’m just protective of my independence and freedom, more protective than I have ever been before. I always thought, ‘What could be better than to love someone and be loved back?’ I finally found what it is to love yourself and not need anyone to love you back.
– Taylor on why it would have to take “someone pretty damn special” for her to want to change her outlook right now
As a twenty-two year old, I think the most annoying question has to be about relationships and significant others. This quote was actually pivotal to me because it’s been something I’ve been saying for the past four years of college. After getting out of a relationship that was toxic, I had to learn not to depend on anyone but myself. I had to grow from the little girl that leaned on her boyfriend for everything and had to do everything with him in order to think our relationship was working. I had to take the negativity and turn it to something positive. I feel like a lot of people have thought I was crazy or just heartbroken but I wasn’t. I was learning to love myself because that’s guaranteed love and no disappointment. That’s a guarantee that I’m in charge of my happiness and it’s nice. I constantly tell people to learn to love themselves first because once you accept your own love, you know what you deserve.
This past year, I’ve reached out and actually given some guys a chance. A few disappointments here and there but that’s God just saying he’s not the one. Maybe I won’t be married before I’m thirty and that’s okay. I’m focused on my life and my career and the present. I just applied for graduation and found out I could graduate this semester. That’s so exciting even though I don’t think I’m ready for it and will probably wait until next semester. Either way, a college degree will be in my hands soon. I’ll no longer have a job but a career and it’ll be something I love. My independence and freedom is what has gotten me to this point. The fact that I’m so protective of myself and who I let in because I don’t want to go back to a dark point. I’m happy and I know what I deserve out of a relationship and life. I know what to look for and appreciate the people that are in my life currently. Thank you Taylor for emphasizing on this so many more people can take this outlook and realize our happiness depends on us.